((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))

can you call back to say that if there's any cancellations, to please give you a call? that's helped me before. also, there are things that you can be doing in the meantime...you can keep a log/journal of feelings, actions and reactions...that will help immensely when you finally get to go.

i'm sorry. i know it's a long time. i wish i could offer better advice