I'm always more coherent as the day goes on. At least I have that. I'm thankful for many things. I've learned my lesson about not changing my meds just cuz I'm frustrated. Better to be a little out of it and get a good night's sleep than to lose the whole next day to trying to catch up on sleep.

I accomplished nothing today. Feeling lame, but thanks for saying I'm not a failure. There are so many things I'd like to do with my life, but as I'm sure everyone else feels at times, they seem so far out of reach.

What if I wanted to climb mountains? Or run for political office? Not that I want to, but so many things are barred from me due to my condition. All I want to do is be able to support myself and start writing again. Short stories, novels, non-morose poems. I hate being semi-conscious and weak.

You know how it is. Thanks for your thoughts.