yes I'm getting the full experience right now, hyperarousal, dissociation, body memories, and weird psychosomatic symptoms. Also my internal ego state structure is threatenning to totally collapse. I'm so tempted to drink or SI just to buy some numbness. I see my pdoc on Mon. and I think I can hold on until then. My T wants to start doing ego stait triagge to make the younger me's feel safe using EMDR starting next Tues. I'm tempted to spend the weekend in bed as it's the only way I think I can keep myself safe. Thank god I just have to get through one more day of work this week and it's a conference so it's less stressful than actually having to go into the office.