(((((((((((((((((K))))))))))))))) Sweety, I am so sorry you are going through all this! I have been absent for so long and I'm sorry. I don't know what happened between the two of you, but I do know you can do this. You can create your "bubble" and you can make it..you can make it so you are strong enough to handle Connor being hot and then cold, up and down with your emotions. Sweety, I believe in you and I know you believe you can do this...I know you want to do this. My goodness, how far you have come!! I am so proud of you, having an eating plan, your job, your flat, your counselling. Do you still have your music? It sounds like it would be hard to play where you are at. Focus on you, sweety. You are the most the important.