It hurt. It hurt and I felt vulnerable. I left T feeling so vulnerable and raw. I told T about how I was having trouble believing that she cared about me. And I asked her if she cared about me or if it was just the money. If the money was the reason she cared about me. But she didn't reply. She just went off saying something else. Then at the end she asked if I had anything else I wanted to say. I said that I felt like she was avoiding my question. She said that she wasn't answering it because she didn't think I would believe her. It made it feel like she was avoiding it. It hurt so much when she said that. Like she was saying that it wasn't even worth trying. That hearing it wouldn't help. And it wasn't like she addressed the money part. She did answer it by saying she couldn't do the job if she didn't care. But does that mean that she only cares because it is her job, and hence she doesn't care about me because I'm me. I don't want to just be someone's job.