At some point, you are going to have to trust that your t cares about you. No matter what she says, you don't believe her. You find another reason not to believe her. That's why she won't answer. She doesn't feel that anything she says will be believed no matter what she says. This isn't about your t caring or not caring about you. You were really hurt growing up. That is what this is about. So talk to her about that inability to trust others because of your history. The adult in you knows rationally that what you are doing is faulty logic. It no longer applies to you, the adult. Your t cares about you. You are ruminating about how much she doesn't care and you're making yourself believe it, but it isn't true at all. This really isn't about your t. I know you are hurting and feeling really exposed and vulnerable right now. Just give yourself some time to regroup and get your feet under you.