starlite, I am very glad you posted. I have been where you are at, exactly in every way. I had tended to Hypo for a long time and then that changed because meds I was on ended up making me sicker. And starlite, it didn't end well. I came so close to dying through my own actions that you just don;t get any closer.

I am telling you the brutal facts because I think you are in great danger. Bugger whether the psychiatrist is helping you - call him/her again and tell them excatly how sick you are. If you can get no joy, call a crisis line and ask for help/options. If that doesn't work, go to the ER and ask for help. It is time to stop all this. Don;t worry about what anyone thinks of you - just keep asking for help until you get it. I had to nearly die to get the attention of my psychiatrist and I don't want that to happen to you. I could have written exactly what you wrote before I tried to end my life in a 100% serious way.