I hope it goes well with your appointment tomorrow and you finally get some help. It is ironic, isn't it? Depression keeps you down by keeping you from doing anything about it. Sometimes it takes someone stepping in and noticing that you need help. And when you do ask for help from someone who should be in a position to help you, and they don't want to admit that there is a problem, that just makes it worse. The first counselor I went to for depression told me that all I was was just homesick, and I was meeting most of the criteria for a major depressive episode (or maybe all of them), but he didn't ask the right questions and I was too withdrawn to be able to volunteer much. I had been depressed for about 10 years already then, and it wound up being closer to 25 years before I got help that was effective.

<font color=green>"Someone may have stolen your dream when it was young and fresh and you were innocent. Anger is natural. Grief is appropriate. Healing is mandatory. Restoration is possible." -Jane Rubietta</font color=green>