God and the afterlife is real - a key is to BELIEVE, the more you believe, the more it is to exist, it is also called FAITH, and so also believe in yourself, and that you can get over your depression(s), and also believe you can stop degrading yourself like that, so like yourself, believe you are like-able, that you have like-able qualities. Enjoy some hobbies, interests; enjoy this life while it lasts, you can only live it once. Of course easier said than done I know.