little rhino... I can so relate to the stress you are under trying to secure a living for yourself. It is really hard to believe in yourself when that kind of pressure is chocking you.

I can also relate to avoiding unfair fights and opted to go it alone rather than battling your ex for your fair share. Its self protecting the last fragments of the string that keeps you on your feet.

I have had more than my share of meltdowns from the strain of coping with the random curve balls life has thrown my way. I get so overwhelmed that I crumble under the pressure but eventually I pick myself up and step up to that plate again and again.

I give myself credit as should you for staying in the game. I give myself credit as should you for determining to find a way even in the dark. I give myself credit as should you for surviving the worst of times in my life and still being here making my way to a better life. I give myself credit and so should you for reaching out for support and encouragement when my resources are low. I give myself credit and so should you for doing everything I can think to do. I give myself credit and so should you for not giving up.

There is much you can give yourself credit for and that is self affirming and positive thinking at its most effective. It is concrete and based on facts. Its not pie in the sky hopes and wishes but solid evidence that you can make the most of the worst of circumstances because you have done just that.

Give yourself credit and give yourself a break. Acknowledge your accomplishments to date. We don't often notice them because they seem so small in their moment. They are major actually. They are the fuel to keep the engine of hope moving us forward.

You are doing everything you can think of to try to make money and even though the dribbles are small there are dribbles coming as a result of your effort. You know your effort pays off so its worth it to keep working it.

Balance that effort with taking care of yourself. Treating yourself with kindness.

Hope you are feeling better.