Than you Belle ..it is so True ..my mom died when I was 17 and dad at 20 ,my son had cancer at 19 almost did me in he lived thank god ..I was able to move on from all of those events somehow ...this seems to be the one biting me hard ...then things seems to be ok for awhile and SLAMMMM bites me 10x harder seems to be when I start going out on a casual basis with someone who starts falling for me and the red flags come up and I feel I don't deserve it ...I want my David Back and only him How horribly wrong is that picture