((((Jexa))))

Thank you for posting. Sorry I did not see this earlier. Know that you have our support today and everyday. I am so sorry that you have gone through this. As others here have said it was abuse and it was wrong. It was NEVER your fault. When you are a child, you trust adults that are suppose to be there for you and care about you. Especially being someone in your family and life. I am so sorry that your mom does not believe you.

It angers me that she told you that others have it worse. What happened to you does not get any worse. And your pain and what you are feeling is valid and understood. I am sorry that you are having to carry this and you should not carry this alone. You carried it for too long alone already. Please know that you are not alone anymore and we are here listening and hearing you.

I know you are worried about your nieces and I hope that you will tell someone (if you cannot talk to your brother someone you trust) about your concerns for them. I think it would help you to feel like you have done something and it is a way for you to give yourself back that voice you never had when you were young. Little girls and boys do not have the ability to think as an adult. That is on them not you.

I know for me, that I thought it was something that all little girl's went through. I had no idea that it was not right. It happened for so long and all the time and I was told I was special and loved. That this was how it was suppose to be. I guess I never questioned it. But it was not the way it was suppose to be and it was wrong.

I am so glad that you were able to reach out to your t. She is there for you and to hear what you have to say. I think others were right in that she was waiting for you to talk about it as she does not want to push you beyond what you can take or where you are ready to go. But I am proud of you for talking to her.

What you are doing is hard and it takes a lot of courage. You are doing what you need to and you are where you need to be right now. Remember to breathe and to do something kind for you. You are worth it and you are worth caring about. Know that we are here for you and we are walking with you.

Thank you for reaching out and for sharing. I know it was hard but you did it. Please keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. We care. I care. And I am here if you need someone to talk to, just PM me anytime. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps