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I can relate to a lot of what you have written and to some extent still do so many years later. In my case I turned to alcohol which was a huge mistake.
I think you got a great response from Lynn, actually think it is one of the best I have seen here. I wish someone had told me those things when I was your age, maybe it would have made a big difference in my life.
Nothing to add except Lynn's advice is great