I would definetly suggest to your mom that there is no reason to keep rum in the house. "In case" a friend comes over, if they need to drink that bad, they can stop at the bar on the way over. She needs to be supportive of you in this! And you'll feel better if you tell her so. Having alcohol in the house is like having a reservation. And if you make a reservation at a hotel, it's because you're planning on going there. That rum could be the end of your sobriety and it would be worth it to have an akward moment with your mom! Get rid of it! All you have to do is stay sober till you go bed. Then you've made it. When you wake up say to yourself, I only have to stay sober till I go to bed. You don't have to drink or pick up a drug ever again, if you don't want to. Keep posting here, and see if you can hit a meeting. It works!