I have been diagosed with PPD. I'm 60 and have a job where I stand on my feet 8 hours a day. I am educated and professional and underemployed, no fault of mine. When i started job, everyone loved me. But while standing still 8 hours, my demeanor changed. I've been there for 3 mo. and have not been promoted. When i get a lunch break, a 20 or 30 something cashier comes with a stool to relieve me. They leave with the stool. I stand for another 4 hrs. While things are starting to improve because of my demeanor, I can't rise to the occasion. It's too little, too late. I now hate them and have a deep grudge against them. How dare them change because I become a b*^&#? I feel their behavior is deplorable. I can leave, but it is always the same. I avert my eyes when they smile. I cannot forgive them. Am I really supposed to forgive them?