This is so childish of me, but Im scared. I have never been so scared in my entire life, I'm so scared that it hurts. I just want it to stop. I want the pain and the noise to go away, it just hurts, I just wanna make it stop and I can't. I have no future- no children for reasons I explained, I'll never get with someone because I'm broken, Im stupid worthless damaged goods, and the depression is never gunna stop. It will always come back.