((((((Kiya)))))))

The hardest thing in the world is to learn to love ourselves. When times get tough I think we all have coping mechanisms that aren't good for us. We take a drink or buy something we don't need or zone out watching tv, or pick a fight...we ALL end up doing things that are harmful to ourselves when we are afraid or overwhelmed. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive yourself.

It sounds like T is doing her best to help you find the right treatment, but ultimately it is your choice. Only you know what you really need to heal. You are reaching out, communicating, being honest, and adapting to a very new way of life. All of that is you. Not T, but you doing the work and taking the steps to heal.

I'm really proud of you.

Much love and support for all of you.