I know what you mean...I don't want to go on disability b/c I want to finish school and be a socialworker (in hopes I get stable enough to help anyone) I can't go to work now though I can't finish anything I start I'm so afraid I am going to let my family down by dropping out but I guess we'll see...this is what I do when I get manic ...sign up for things thinking I can conquer the world!