Oh, my! this feels great...no emotion...feeling nothing but the cuts...I love it! Yes, I cut again. There goes my 2 months free of cutting. Oh, well. Don't really care at this point.

My step-sister started lecturing me about my dad and how I should focus on my life with my bf, not my dad. He is my FATHER...not some normal person. He's more important to man than anybody else in this world. Why should'nt I think of him and going through the loss of our once wonderful relationship?

I know you guys don't want to hear about all this stuff, but it's taking over my mind...I'm out of control and the darned meds don't work anyways!