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Thanks for all your great responses. I've been doing some thinking about all of it. Can't say I've come up with too much except that I'm taking a slightly more positive view of things now, and I have you all to thank for it.

((((((lynn09)))))) Thank you so much for sharing in your post, I really appreciate it. It's good to know somebody else has experienced the same terror and confusion as me. Knowing that someone else managed to face up to it makes me realize it's not something insurmountable.

I'm trying to remain hopeful and I'm going to work hard on breaking through this paralysis. You're right. The more I hide, the more I'm only hurting myself. I need to remind myself f that more often. I've faced all kinds of degrees of this paralysis in my life, whether it comes on from fear, self-loathing, depression, exhaustion ... I'm slowly figuring out how to just FORCE myself to do the things I feel physically incapable of doing, from getting out of bed to doing my homework to saying hello to someone in class. It's hard and I can only do it in baby steps, but every time I get myself to do something that 30 seconds earlier I was convinced was absolutely impossible, I see a little more of my own strength. I guess the hardest part is remembering that that strength is there at all.