((((((((((( googley )))))))))))))

We totally understand it when you say you feel like something broke. Oh boy do we ever understand that.

What helped me through that feeling was really choosing for my own benifit to see the theraputic relationship as a business situation instead of a personal situation. ((I know it gets personal - but I had to change my point of view for MY benifit in this case.)) In a personal friendship, I would not have allowed myself to re-trust my T after feeling the "broken" stuff. It is my way of keeping people at a "safe" emotional distance. And it is why I do not have many friends IRL. But that is ok for now.

As a business relationship, I decided I need to allow my T some extra wiggle room with the old trust buzzer. I have a NEED to trust my T. And I do not want to start all over with someone else. So it was in my best interest to just chalk up what I did not like as an incident. I saw it with the same distance that I would if my mechanic had left the cap off the oil thing. :-) It was hard for me to make that analogy and allow myself to move forward, but that choice was in my best interest long term. So I did it.

Somehow just by seeing it from that slightly different point of view, it made it easier to no longer feel the "broke" stuff. If that makes any sense at all.....

Big hugs!!