|
Starting yesterday and continuing onto today my feelings have gotten bad again. I get the feeling that I don't belong here. Not here as in PC but here as in this world. Like, I wasn't supposed to still be alive at this point, that I wasn't supposed to grow up into being an adult. Where I am now, it's not my world, I shouldn't be here.
Thinking about it, it was actually a few day ago this started, thinking about how useless my individual life is on Thursday. I didn't make a thread about these feelings in the depression forum because suicidal posts aren't allowed. But right now I'm not feeling suicidal so much as just really sad.
|