Hi I did find it, I don't think it is my medicine, because I don't take much, only 600mg Lithium. I haven't been able to tolerate antipsychotics because of the restless legs. I have had diagnoses come and go, TLE, MS, Schizoaffective, Conversion disorder, PTSD, but Bipolar with psychotic features has been settled on. I have been in therapy almost weekly for 7 years. Right now I am better than I have been in ages, but all of those diagnoses are about my brain. Whatever the problem is it's been there almost all my life. The biggest problem for me truly is not having a persistent tangible sense of self, that, and "meaning." I love Patricia Deegan, she is such an inspiration. Is that from her W.H.O. Speech? I watched it on line several years ago. I can't complain too much, she seemed to have been much more ill than I have been. I would like to hear her speak now after all this time, to find out what still is difficult, and what is not.