I guess I should have expected that kind of response from my group members....considering it's a gestalt based group where you're supposed to express your feelings "in the moment" in an honest way.

But it hurts to get that, instead of support, empathy, understanding.

I thought I couldn't feel any worse....and then I did by reading the blog....and then now, my ex just texted me saying that he is sending our granddaughter (his son's newborn) an Easter card and if it would be ok if he signed it from him, me and our daughter. I told him that it was not a good idea and that we are not a couple. He texted back, saying that he's been crying for 15 minutes and needs to calm down.

So, now I feel even worse....I know I can't be responsible for his actions and his feelings....but I can't help but shoulder some of that blame. And I hate that he's hurting right now....

I feel so incredibly awful....about all of this....every single aspect of it....