Stay focused on self-care right now. You are hurting. It is so true that you are not responsible for his actions or his feelings. It is not your job to take all of his stuff on your shoulders. I know it can be hard to make yourself not care about his stuff right now - but that is what you need to do for self-care. You are conflicted because you are a very wonderful human who has a heart of gold. It is a heart that some people have abused and stepped on for their own greed and desires.

People like your ex and my ex and my father will go through cycles to try to get us to do what they want. It is manipulation. They know we love them on a deep level. And they abuse that human emotion. They use flattery to get us to give into them. They will use tears and try to guilt us into doing what they want. If that does not work, they turn to anger and rage to try to bully us around. Then they will go back to sobbing and being 'so sorry' they did those things to us.

Honestly, it will wear a person out in no time flat to have those types of people in our lives.

Stay within yourself for right now and let yourself process YOUR 'stuff' for now.