(((((((((((mixed))))))))))))

please don't be so hard on yourself. we all do things that we regret later. we're human and we will never be perfect. being hard on yourself actually makes it worse not better. maybe it would be good to contact T and see if you can get an extra session this week. i do think it would really help. also, maybe you and your ex-h could consider doing some joint counseling with someone (his old T you liked?). since he will always be in your life due to your daughter it might really help with setting boundaries and communicating. just having another person in the room when you say something can make an impact and help him to "get it" that you aren't going to get back together with him. please take care mixed.