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Originally Posted by deliquesce
thank you, jexa  .
i sent him a txt. i said sorry im difficult to connect with, that i know no one likes me in a meaningul way & that i dont want to waste his time anymore if we dont have a connection so to cancel next week's appt. he replied saying no need to apologise & that he had to tell me because that's likely how others would see me also and that he would keep my spot open if i changed my mind.
anyway, i'm giving up. if that's how people see me then so be it. i dont have the energy to keep trying anymore. i see pdoc on wednesday and will talk it over with him but he's a good person to me so he'll make it ok. |
Sounds like he was having a very, very off day. Doesn't sound like the usual Austin-T.
What he's not doing--directly--is taking ownership of his part of the situation--relationships being a two-way street. Maybe there's an issue with him about it. Which I bet is what he's thinking, that he's failing you as a T and so he's b;laming what he perceives as a failure to connect on you rather than his own failings as a T. T's are supposed to be able to connect with far many more people than the rest of us. If they lack that expanded empathy and ability to relate, they're in the wrong profession.
Where he's def. gone haywire is trying to communicate to you what is a simpel point--you're not as easy to connect with as many other people. That describes all therapy patients, I think. If it were so easy for us to connect (like others) we wouldn't be in therapy at all.
Austin-T also gets an "F" (all F's today for him) for not responding by saying that your appointment is still scheduled as far as he's concerned.
Don't let one human's failings (Austin here, me at other times), ruin your feelings about yourself and things. He blew it today, probably feels like he's professionally failing in not helping you as much as he thinks he should be, and not taking responsibility for his part. Maybe he'll come around on his own; I bet you'll have to bring this up to him next session.
You've done incredible in the past few months--
passing uni,
getting to honours,
your promotion and job recognition (and raise),
moving out/in,
handling your trip abroad well (a very big deal involving multiple, new, and massive adjustments socially, personally, etc.),
handling med changes,
handling dodo-brain pdoc and his recent professional failings and sticking up for yourself,
doing a great job with some of the family difficulties and severe stress that have arisen,
handling friend/roommate issues......
in addition to usual things like going to work.....
Austin-T is not giving (you) recognition to all the positive things you've done/accomplished, changes made.
apologies for typos. don't have it in me to review and edit.......