Well, I'm just going to be honest in this thread.

I don't know what help people can give to me really. I've found that over the years of being in college that I just dont have the motivation or the desire to do well. I mean, it upsets me that I dont do well, i just...dont do well.

I just cant seem to get myself on a schedule or to make myself care about my assignments, no matter how hard I try.

Is this called laziness? Some might call it apathy.

I guess so.

It causes me a great deal of pain that this seems to be pretty much my personality. I'm nice, I make a great friend, but I have no ambition, motivation or drive in life.

It's funny, I was an honors student in high school. But I guess that was a result of having nurses and interpreters around me to push me to do my work.

I'm probably going to get a lot of hate on this thread. People saying stuff like "just do DO things".

I feel like I cant though. I looked deep within myself to see if I have what it takes to just like...have a decent amount of motivation in life and I just dont have it. I wish I did.

Because without it I'm pretty much worthless as a human being. I'm a net-drain on those around me. I hurt those around me by being Lazy. In fact, it'd probably be better if I never was born at all if this is my inherent nature.