Thanks everyone - I survived the weekend without doing any damage to myself, mainly by calling friends and staying in bed. Saw my pdoc this morning, not that he was very helpful - he has all the therapeutic warmth of a dead fish. He was willing to up my clonazapam, but I don't want to do that unless I absolutely need to. he suggested backing off on the trauma work with my T, and focussing on developing healthier coping strategies so that I'll be able to preempt my symptoms rather than having to react to them.

In theory this is a reasonable approach, and one I'm sure they taught in pdoc school - problem is this is what we've been doing, I'm finding it stressful, and the PTSD is just getting worse.

I think my T's approach to doing ego state work will be more effective, and she is a trauma specialist. I see her tomorrow night.

--splitimage