and I dont know what to do. I am JUST learning that T CAN be trusted (after 2 years of therapy), and I have a long way to go (Ts words) before I am anywhere near "better". We had a misunderstanding a few months ago when I thought T was telling me not come (he wasnt), and the effect of that on me was horrendous. A lot of things happened in that time (without T) that I dont think I can cope with again.

We have been having sessions every other week recently (my choice. T thinks I need weekly sessions right now), and I find it really hard to connect with T each session, and then just as we start to do sme work, the session is over.

At a push I could go once, maybe twice a month but I would really be leaving myself short. I've seen other posts where T has offered a reduced rate, but I really dont think I would be comfortable with that, and Im not sure T would even offer.

I havent spoken with T about it yet (am planning on doing so when I see him this week), but I am really scared about bringing this up because I really feel that I am not ready to leave T at this point.

How do you cope when you cant afford T but need to be in T?