as an added note....he is also very particular when it comes to driving. he will only drive a certain speed limit and in one particular lane and he must drive behind a big truck. or he would rather not drive the freeway. he gets in his world and makes no apologies for who he is which i admire, but i feel he is oblivious to how this is not typical behavior and how it therefore might affect me. like he isn't letting me in on what's going on so then i feel really confused. he doesn't want to open up or talk about his obsessions and even forgot he had told me he had ocd and when i brought it up he changed the subject. he won't talk about it and just expects me to be totally okay with these things he does that throw me off. the feeliing neglected thing when he just suddenly needs to leave my house out of the blue when we are having a great time hurts. the fact that he won't have oral sex and must immediately clean after sex makes me feel "dirty". it's hard not to take it personally. he gets really zoned in his own world. he'll surf the internet just to watch clips from movies hundreds of times. this is why i think he needs to race home even though he won't admit why. maybe he needs to recheck the locks or surf the internet or wash or clean?? i'm not sure and just don't know how to deal with this but it's hard because i really really care about him.