Hi, LovebirdsFlying!

• Grandmother
• Homemaker
• Writer (book in progress)
• Onomastician (the personal names thing)

Granted you feel you have nothing worthwhile to contribute to society, a feeling reinforced regularly by people close to you, I find it difficult to see you as someone who actually doesn't contribute to society.

By no means am I challenging the reality and pain of your feelings. When I feel, or allow myself to feel, it feels bad. I regret you have these feelings of worthlessness. Unfortunately, I have no self-esteem boosters to offer. The only thing that works for me is focus away from myself entirely and not even think about self-esteem at all.

Keep posting. Someone here will have better words for you.