Today I'm just feeling really terrible. I'm sitting here wondering why I have no real friends. Why don't I even have family that cares about what happens to me? I mean if they really care then why don't they show it? My own parents don't even care. Good grief!! The two people that made me and brought me into this world do NOT care!! What did I ever do in my life to deserve this? I have problems with the way I react to things, and I feel that maybe I have pushed them away. I don't know for sure though. I thought that your family is supposed to be there for you and love you regardless of anything else. I guess I was wrong. And maybe I am just feeling sorry for myself. I don't know how to feel right now. I'm lonely and scared. All I need is someone who cares....REALLY cares. I wonder if I am just overreacting to things, or if it's really true that I am not worthy enough for people to care. I already feel "different" because of the problems I have, but feeling this way only makes that worse. My parents say that I am just very "independant", and that I don't need them as much as my sister does. But I really feel left out. Completely and totally ignored is more like it. It's been this way for years. I'm tired now. I'm going to bed. I'm sorry to seem so negative. I needed to talk about this though.

-Jennifer-