I know I posted about this last week...but today I had my first session since I started having this feeling of "hey, I don't NEED T in the same way". It was soooooooooo strange. He kind of just seemed like a person - not "T", all larger than life. I've had SO much support outside of therapy that I really didn't have anything to talk about, other than reporting how this big shift has taken place. I actually said something OUT LOUD to T about ending therapy someday.

Who knows, the "newness" of the support outside of therapy might fade and the need for T might come back full force. Or not.

It felt weird while I was there, but now it feels a little sad. I'm not going to change anything yet, but I can feel it ahead, you know?

I don't know whether to feel like or . Maybe both.