Thank you to everyone who replied!!

Amazingly, the original post wasn't even the whole deal. I planned to write more but my dad kicked me off (he's definitely a Mr. Grumpy Gills---props to whoever recognizes that one). I'll just put the rest of what I was going to say on here:

As far as the "crushes" go, the only two that are serious (or anything more than school girl crushes, which are being enjoyed because we're being allowed to have them for once) are Zack and Dusty. I guess I was kinda wondering if anyone has advice or something. Ideally we'd go for someone that everyone in the system likes; while nobody in the system particularly dislikes one over the other, there are several who like one more than the other. They're both great guys, and I am really confident that they would treat us right; I just don't know if it's an okay thing to be flirting with them or even giving them a hint that there might be a chance of a relationship. Zack knows about us, and it doesn't bother him; Dusty doesn't, but I highly doubt it'd freak him out. I just think it wouldn't really be fair to lead a guy on when I'm not exactly mentally stable. I really really really don't want to have yet another relationship I regret, especially if it's my fault this time (that sounded mean...let's just say I haven't been the greatest at picking boyfriends...) I kinda want to just let it play out, but I'm graduating in two months, and everything I've heard tells me that if I don't make some kind of move now, I won't see ever see these guys again. Oh, and I should mention...Zack's engaged. However, I know that it was her idea and she's more into him than he's into her; frequently he refers to her as "my girlfriend" vs. "my fiancee", like he forgets they're engaged. He barely talks about her at all anymore, and they're long distance. I do not want to be the one to break up a long-distance relationship (or any at all), because I've had that done to me. However, if their relationship is already on the rocks, and he willingly flirts with me...? I don't know. This is where I need advice! Lol. Dusty's great, I don't really spend as much time with him as with Zack, plus he's pretty shy and I'm not very outgoing around guys I like, so...If I had to pick one, I'd say I like Zack just a little bit more, because of the intellectual aspect; me and him get into debates like you wouldn't believe. But like I said, I haven't spent as much time with Dusty, and I have a pretty bad track record with judging who to date... Sorry for rambling!

Another breakthrough within the system (sorry if I'm boring anyone, I just wanna get this all out!): Remy came out a few days ago. She is the keeper of misery and sad feelings. She's known for being rather unstable, and is the major SI'er (is that a word?) in our system. She also tends to show up when we have symptoms of (for lack of a better description) PMDD, and she has on several occasions outed us because she couldn't handle all the intense feelings inside. She was also the one who OD'ed several years ago (a s**c*de attempt). However, when she was out a couple days ago, she was actually really calm. The only way, really, that we could tell it was her is because of the memories she had access to, and the nagging feeling in the back of her throat like she could be triggered into a panic attack at any second. Oh, and the music she listened to. It was nice, because (since she was stable) she gave us access to memories, thoughts, etc, that we normally couldn't get. Plus I think it was HUGE that she was out without any desire to self harm, attempt s**c*de, or without any displays of intense emotions that usually get people REALLY REALLY REALLY worried about us. It was either a coincidence that she was out (in the time of the month when there were no PMDD or PMDD-like symptoms), or a breakthrough .

I'll post more as I remember it. Like I said, a LOT of stuff going on!!!!