I don't think I would know what to feel either. I think you can feel and at once. And I think that's about how I would feel. Right now the thought of that happening is more like to me, but that is just where I am at in my therapy. Once it happens I guess it just happens. And isn't there anymore then.

Remember this ebbs and flows.. I think you are right not to make decisions right now. Changing things is hard. It's okay to go less often, and then change your mind and go back to twice a week. It's okay not to need T right now, and then to need him more later. Everything you feel is okay.. I am glad you are getting support outside of T, I am glad your needs are being met. I am glad you are doing okay, tree.