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Originally Posted by treehouse
I know I posted about this last week...but today I had my first session since I started having this feeling of "hey, I don't NEED T in the same way". It was soooooooooo strange. He kind of just seemed like a person - not "T", all larger than life. I've had SO much support outside of therapy that I really didn't have anything to talk about, other than reporting how this big shift has taken place. I actually said something OUT LOUD to T about ending therapy someday.
Who knows, the "newness" of the support outside of therapy might fade and the need for T might come back full force. Or not. 
It felt weird while I was there, but now it feels a little sad. I'm not going to change anything yet, but I can feel it ahead, you know?
I don't know whether to feel like  or  . Maybe both. |
I think it's both. Just because you are starting to feel like you *could* end therapy someday, doesn't mean that you have to cut back now or anytime soon.
I can relate to that feeling of T is just human and not larger-than-life. I think it's a really healing realization. It means that I can get some of my needs met by normal, regular people. I can connect and feel warmth with other ordinary people. I don't have to keep hoping or holding out for the perfect mother fantasy that will never come.
Just on a logistical note...In two years I have gone from seeing T once a week to once every 2 weeks, then once every 3 weeks and then back to once a week, and now I see her 2x a week. It all depends on what's going on with me and how much support I need at the moment.