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Old Mar 29, 2010, 05:36 PM
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Originally Posted by darkrunner View Post
((((Deli)))))
You are a darling and you made my whole day.
But you are sillier than I am because I would NEVER be fed up with you!
we can be silly mind readers together, then . thank you for the reassurance, sweetie.

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When do you see pdoc next? Since austin-T was less than helpful, what else can you do to help you feel better NOW? How are the meds working out for you?
see pdoc tomorrow. meds aren't working yet, and i'm frustrated because they worked so quickly (72hrs) last time. i slept most of yesterday (after i ran out of tissue boxes to snottingly cry my way through). i could sleep again but im not tired. i have uni later today - i dont want to go, but i probably should. i need to return some library books, i can't afford the fines. it's raining, else i'd sleep in the park. im open to suggestions, my ideas are out.

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Deli - you could be absolutely right about austin-T not caring, and it not being helpful or worth it to go back. You would certainly know better than I would. But even if you could prove it to me as an undeniable fact - I would still say go back for one last appointment and tell him how he messed up and how you felt about it. That's just my opinion.
i think this would only work if he cared. if he doesnt care, then i'm wasting my time talking to someone who doesn't care that he messed up because i dont matter. i can see what you're saying, darkrunner, but i need to stop doubting myself with this. i spent two years with my old-therapist telling myself he didn't care but trying to give him the benefit of the doubt. he ended up being a turd. i don't think austin-t is unethical (and the last guy probably wasnt either, not deeply unethical, just borderline narcissistic) but i need to start listening to myself more, i think. i keep trying with relationships that are dead and i need to stop wasting my energy on that. austin-t has told me that what we have is dead, so no point going back and not relating.

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Originally Posted by jexa View Post
deli I feel like such a dimwit for not having more to say right now. I honestly don't know what advice to give. But I hate to leave your threads without saying anything because I want you to feel heard. SO...

Also I like what darkrunner had to say.
jexa, don't feel bad!! you're right, you know - i want to feel heard, more than anything, really. the advice is helpful but it's not as important to me as someone hearing me. the hugs mean a million .