(((((((((((((((hereiam))))))))))))))))))

except for the tape thing (which could be a number of things from a child's imagination), it seems like normal child experimenting/acting out what they've seen.

i remember a similar experience and it's a jolt to me too! it's embarassing and confusing to remember!

if you were both the same age, i think it's pretty normal acting out by children. if it's bothering you more tho than embarassment or confusion, it might be that she instigated and you were scared the entire time? that's what happened with what i remember here. i was about 9-10 and she initiated everything and it was pretty scary for me. maybe that's why? i know it was pretty scary for me for other reasons as well...what else was going on in my life.

maybe you could talk to someone about this? you are not alone, friend...more than you could ever dream. childhood "play" similar to that is more "normal" than not. it crosses lines when fear is instigated, i think.

it feels dreamlike for me, but it's not. i have the descriptive memory that you have that leads me to believe it's real.

((((((((((((((hereiam))))))))))))))))) very brave of you. you're not alone.

kd