Hey Lovebird,
Im thin as a rail and still feel the same ways you do alot of the time. I think alot of what you are feeling is chemical/emotional. I'd take "big as an elephant" anyday if it meant being happy. Work on your inner self, your heart and the ability to receive love, including loving yourself. I spent the year 2009 learning to accept love, not from men or anything like that, but from myself, and others. Progress was slow but I have moved that wall I built up forward a little...... I think elephants are cute!!!!!!!