We had a new exsperance last weekend. Even at church only a few would talk to us but now more are talking to us and asking us to do things with them. We be scared cause in the past we would let down our garde that we would be hurt by those that had alters under thier control would hurt us. We want to believe that the time of our abuse is over but when even The Mential health is tell others not to acknowlde the possible of DID/MPD. We have many fears yet want to be free from the ignorance of a few men.
The part that hurts us the most is how long it has been since we had people touch us and not want to hurt us. Yes the few men we trusted not to hurt us we tried to stay with but they finaly let us know that others said we scared of them they be the only one we known to hurt us with thier word not with their hands. That why we be alone so much. Thats why we be so lonely when we came here.
Those that believed us to be bad or just scared of those different made others no like us. Now that we have someone talking to us we be scared in what to believe or if they only pertend to hurt us more..
sorry we just learn to be joined again and we going through so much on all ends.
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Sometimes the only way to find freedom is to fight for it, even unto death! Because no form of abuse transcends pass it! To live free and with hope is still the greatest gift of life!- anderson .gif "Boy Angel")
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