Hello, everyone.

I've been in a full blown depression, unusal for me, normal for me is manic.

Well, when this happened with my daughter.

I jumped. I wanted to make it all better. Do anything, everything I can to aide her.

Well,...... I thank all of you.

I never had any support, love, etc as a child.... was always trying to be locked away in a girls home....

So for my children (adults - though I know) I pick up that phone every time.

I had called the hospital about her medication - BECAUSE
She told me she HAS to do what they say to get out.

She called me and told me "YOUR CALLING UP HERE ABOUT MY STUFF, HAS TO STOP. IT HAS TO STOP NOW!"

Shocked, humble, discouraged I said 'okay'. She said "I love you and HUNG up"

So She didn't want what I thought, which was to start to heal.

She just wanted to get out of their to go 'home'.

She called me twice today - first time said "Call me A.S.A.P.", called again and got recorded and SLAMMED DOWN PHONE.

Called again - I did pick up.

AMANDA SAID "IT'S ABOUT TIME. I'VE BEEN CALLING THERE LEAVING MESSAGES".

I 'simply' asked what's going on.

"THEY'RE LETTING ME OUT OF HERE. TRYING TO SET UP SOME KIND OF TRANSPORTATION FOR THERAPY, GIVING ME TWO WEEKS WORTH OF MEDICATION".

The Tone of her voice I said "Why are you talking to me like this Amanda?"

"WELL, YOU DON'T SOUND EXCITIED"

I said "I hope you stay trying to get getting better".

RESPONSE - "HUH! WHATEVER. I love you, Mom" Slammed phone down.