(((((jexa)))))) I wasn't a direct victim of CSA, my sister was. She told before our father could get to me. To this day (almost 20 yrs later) I still do not know what happened. Part of me does, the other part doesn't. My family doesn't talk about it. No one ever asked how it effected me. Now I am dealing with the effects of SA from my now ex husband. It is so hard to talk about it. I tried for a long time to talk about it and couldn't until just recently. You have to be ready. I have had a lot of things come to the surface that I hadn't wanted to deal with. They all came up at once.
I am glad that you have summoned the courage to speak out about this horrible event. Take baby steps. Go at your own pace. Take care of yourself.