Why it is wonderful (and very sad) to see my thoughts being written by someone else. Coco- I'm sorry your husband is like that, mine trys so hard to understand but I know he prob. wants me to get the F out of bed and get off my butt and clean more than everyother week but unless I'm manic I'm so depressed or tired from the four days of not sleeping from the mania, I never can do anything. I have no drive, my stupid ***** got a phone call from an online school one day when I was manic and I signed up and now ( in a three month depression, longest run I've ever had) I am struggling to do the work. I am a rapid cycler with mixed episodes, So I can usually have 4 good days 2 bad 6 good 10 bad 1 good...I never know and there are few in between that are "normal"...now off my antidepressants, I have never wanted things to "end" so much. I'm trying to just "be" untill the new meds kick in but..........I'M SO TIRED!