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Originally Posted by Julial
Thank you for your response and for sharing your thoughts. You are right about trying not to anticipate my diagnose. I know that bipolar and severe depression run in my family but only my brother was formally diagnosed with bipolar and I don't think he is getting the quality treatment that he should be. As a family, we did not acknowledge our mental problems and they were passed off as episodes or hissy fits (I come from the south!) and generally ignored as bad behavior. I do know that something is definitely wrong; I just got over an "episode" last week and I am still feeling the ups and downs in my emotions. My mother shot herself in June of last year and I think that it is catching up with me. She was 75 yrs old and in fairly good physical health but she just kept saying there was no point in living. I tried to do all the right things for her care but she refused treatment. Sometimes, I feel very sorry for myself but my family has taught me that you just shake it off and go on. And that is not working for me, nor has it ever. I appreciate your input. My appt is April 8 and in a way I am looking forward to it. Go figure. Again, my thanks.
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I know where you are at with the family problem (hissy fits!) and I'm from the north...they are all very dumb when it comes to this... mental issues also runs on both sides of my family ( my dad shot himself at 23 when I was just 3, so I only have everyone elses description to go by) My sister, my brother, both have different dads from me and eachother. My moms not so bad now but from the stories I have heard, which all could be the situations she had to deal with, idk,I really don't, but anyway what I was tryng to get too was that up untill my mom excepted my sister had issues mine were just wrote off as (let me see if I can quote her) " a persons excuse to do and say what they want" oh and lets not forget "a reason to be on meds to not have to deal with reality" I really don't think anyone knows the whole of my illness..I do alot of pretending with people idk why its just easier than letting people know your weaknesses b/c they have something to use against you if they want to hurt you. I alays was trying to be "the strong one" lately (and could be due to the med change) I have this feeling of giving up....I have all but quit everything that was so habit to me and now it means nothing, coffee,smoking, drinking, (doesn't seem like much but its all I had) I am looking at what I just typed and those things are so funny now... at the beginning of my end I quit everything that was bad for me
anyway I ramble alot..you'll see that
Just wanted to say good luck in your quest for meds it may be a long one but I'm praying for you that it's not