Thanks for the post ellewoods212. It's nice to know that others like me are out that, although I wouldn't wish this upon anyone. I just feel so overwhelmed and compelled to do it, but then feel nasty and bad afterwards. And no real satisfaction comes from it, because it's another cycle all over again later.

To answer your question, TheByzantine, I have thought about therapy for years now. I have a problem with doing too much self-help and I'm wary of therapy. I never really had the extra funds to do it and now I especially don't. But now I know I need help more than ever - ironic huh? I know I have to do something, just not sure what direction to start in. I feel stuck.