Brennan, like Lonescout, I also suffer from a chemical imbalance and I also used to think about suicide all the time. That was many, many years ago and my psychiatrist also saved my life. For me, a combination of therapy and the right medication changed me in ways that I can't even describe. And all of the friends that I thought I'd lost (there were many) came back - I hadn't lost them at all, they just didn't know how to support me or relate to me when I was as depressed as I was. They are still my closest friends today.

10 years ago, I came very, very close to ending my life and I am soooo glad that I didn't. The years since have been wonderful and so many things have happened that I would never have experienced or known.

Brennan, if your family won't help, please call 911 or go to the emergency room. You might be surprised just how helpful your parents would be if you told them the truth...I was. I didn't think they would but when I asked for help they were there for me when I really needed them. But if you can't do that, go to the hospital. They will help you.

Please contact me if you want to talk.

Feddy