thank you so much ((((((((((((((((((everyone))))))))))))))))) who responded. i'm sorry i haven't responded until now, but i've been working really hard to keep this at bay until i found out some answers and got the police report, then saw t. i've done all of those things now and wanted to update y'all.

i got the police report on tueday, a few hours before seeing t (perfect timing, huh?). alot of it was blacked out because there had never been an arrest on this case and it's still prosecutable in criminal or civil court. they have to protect this sexual preditor, ya know. i was able to answer most of my questions, though, by what i could read and what else the report helped me to remember.

bottom line...i feel very good about my actions then. i reported him to the police. i decided against going to the prosecutor because there were no other complainants at the time (not with the police or state medical board), so it was my word's against a dr's. the investigator noted that i wanted it to be on file in case another woman came in with a complaint and they could see the history. which is exactly what happened! the police followed up with me and did a good job...they cared. i feel good about everything that took place after that office visit.

down side is that i'll never truly know what happened there. he was an anesthesiologist. that shot could've drugged me, but might not have. there is a chunk of time that's not detailed in the report after there, and it was a very detailed report. i'll never know if he drugged me or i checked. therefore, i'll never know how much further things went in that office that day. i have to deal with that and place it. i also have to deal with the fact that i went into shock and did nothing to prevent him, except trying to deter him with words. i know that was reaction as a dissociative survivor. however, it's still hard.

bottom line...i feel really good about the way the police and i handled it after the fact. i have to deal with and place never knowing what may have happened (other than the gross that i already know...gross sexual imposition). i have to forgive myself for reaction and lack of actions in the office that day. so, i'm getting there.

i could prosecute criminally even now. i could sue him as well and more than likely win. however, i just want to place this. he'll never be a dr again and be in that position to hurt women and he's listed on the state and national levels as a sexual preditor. they're watching this man closely to this day.

he was jailed, put on 5 yrs probation, required to register nationally as a preditor, and will never practice medicine again (his license was permanently revoked. i'm satisfied.

thank you so much for your support,

kd