So I came home today, and since my husband was going to be late, I wanted to play Rock Band 2. But the stupid x-box isn't hooked up, so I decided to go to youtube to watch some videos, and that is what I've been doing for the past 2 hours, and I feel pretty relaxed. It's nice. I've been forgetting lately how much my mood is effected by music, and lately I've been listening to just trash. I need music that will stimulate my mind, and dancing in da club, is not something that really does. I need music that means something.

Growing up, I always escaped through music. I think that's why 40% of my brain is full of lyrics. It's probably why I also have tinnitus, from wearing head phones and listening to it waaaaaaaay too loud. But when I listened to music, I just got away from it all. Away from all the crap. Always being told what I should be doing, and that I could have done better. But when I listened to music, that was it. I didn't think of anything else.

Then I thought about it some more, and there's been basically one band that has been a constant since 1998.....that band would be Placebo. I was watching one of their old videos, and then it said the date, which led me to remembering what happened that year, because somehow I have related my life since '98 to Placebo songs....weird.

Their new album is, can I say, "brighter" but I don't think you would understand it, having not listened to them. I'll just go with "not as dark," then their other albums. Anyways, the video for their song "Bright Lights" came up first, and I watched it, and started thinking how music made me feel at least something growing up.

Any one else have a similar experience?