((((((Babysteps))))))
Maybe having a therapist who you could talk to would help, I know it did with me and still does. She made me see things I had never been aware of in all my many years on this earth, she taught me new words like sadness and showed me more compassion than anyone had.
As a fellow canadian who lives in the east, I can tell you Summer is coming...hopefully this will cheer you up a bit...and dont forget about all this chocolate...Seriously Babysteps You deserve to be happy You are a wonderful caring person